heartbroken momma...mom post #03

Yesterday was such a scary day. Seeing your child hurt really tears at the heart. Of course he has fell and had a boo boo before or ran into the wall because he was running too fast and not watching where he was going, but we had our first real uh-oh/omg/canthisbereal moment yesterday. And the lovely story goes something like this...

I had gotten him up from his nap and let him play in his room for a few minutes. We started on our way down the stairs and he was walking beside me for the first few and then he said momma carry me. No big deal, we do this a million times a day. {We have wooden stairs by the way}. I wasn't walking fast and I'm not sure what happened but I fell, I'm guessing, down 7 or so stairs. When I fell my back hit and his leg must have slammed down on the stairs. It happened so quick, I'm not really sure. And I'm also not really sure where my adrenaline came from, but I jumped up with that baby in my arms and got down the rest of the stairs, jerked his pants off and examined. He was hurting and I didn't know where at. He cried and he cried and he cried. He's not a huge crier, only when he doesn't get his way :)) This was a 'momma I'm hurtin' kind of cry. I couldn't find anything wrong on his leg or foot so we just rocked in the chair and watched Dora until I got him calmed down. I tried to get him to stand a few times and he would shake, scream, cry and hold his leg. Finally daddy got home from work and we tried standing him up again. Trevor said it's time to head out. I waited for his doctor to call me back and they sent us to an orthopedic type clinic.

I finally got him calmed down after we fell...and of course choo choo is stuck in his hand :) And it didn't leave his side through the cast and all!

Oh the fun part. He did fine if he was in his car seat or we were holding him still. They did x-rays and he screamed bloody murder. Then we went into a room to talk to the doctor and view the x-rays. He has a nice little fracture in his tibia. I could see Trevor's mind racing as he asked the doctor a million questions. Me on the other hand, I stood there quiet as can be holding my baby wanting to break out in tears. And I did. The moment that doctor left the room I just cried. You never want your baby to be hurt. EVER. I would take that fractured bone away from him in a hot second. But I can't.

We went to the cast room and picked out his blue cast and then here comes the screams and crying again. I was so ready for this to just be over so my sweet boy would quit crying and stop hurting. Once they got it on, he just kept saying that it was 'stuck'. He loves that word...it's one of his top 5. So that brought a nice laugh to momma and daddy. Tanner didn't think it was funny at all...he just wanted that thing off :))

Breaks a momma and daddy's heart :(

New accessory for the next few weeks...good thing he likes the color blue :)

After getting pain meds and waiting forever at the pharmacy, we got home about 9:15. We tried to bathe him off as best as we could. I found something that he could wear to sleep in over his cast and off to bed he went. I was a nervous wreck all night. Of course his tough boy behavior didn't surprise me at all. He woke up once at 5 am and yelled out.  I heard him moan around 7:30 so I got up and was going to start on his breakfast. Glad I didn't...that child didn't wake up till 10:15. He was pooped from all of the craziness that happened to him :(

Sleeping like a lil angel this morning in his cute attire lol :))

Of course I want to share this so I'll have every detail for myself when I look back 20 years from now. And so Tanner can see what a tough little cookie he was (and is). I also want to share this because as I laid down last night and prayed so hard for my baby, God really spoke to my heart. I love my child sooooo much and would take every bit of his pain away from him if I could. God loves us even BIGGER than that. He will take our pain away, He will comfort us, He loves us. All we have to do is seek Him. WOW!! Even in the scariest situations, He's talking to me and reassuring me. I am His child and He is always by my side. So thankful for His love for His children =)

Sorry for the not so fun story, but all is fair in love and war. I declare war on those stinkin steps :)) Tanner is tough, like his mom, lol totally kidding. He's tough like his daddy. He'll be okay and I'm sure this won't be the last of injuries in his lifetime. Oh the joys of parenthood :) I wouldn't trade it for the world!

Here's a sweet picture of him after he woke up this morning and started playing! He's learned to scoot around and will hopefully walk on it some in the next few days. I couldn't be more proud of him. He is an amazing little boy. Thanks to everyone who wrote me on facebook, messaged me, sent texts, called and most of all prayed for our boog. I know he felt all of the love...and I did too!

Say cheese...and this is what I got. My cutie pie!

Hope ya'll have a great Thursday! I'm off to enjoy a quiet minute while he naps. Until next time...

Magan

Tanner's ChOo ChOo party!

Tanner had an amazing 2nd birthday party this past Saturday! Momma and daddy were slap worn out afterwards, but he had a blast so that's all that matters. We ordered a big bounce house from a local company (who's also our friends) and it was wonderful. Check out Southern Bounce 'N' Slides here. Tanner had lots of friends that came and they bounced and slid for what seemed like hours. He was having the best time! And he has been playing with his new toys every day...he loves them so much that he no longer wants to eat or sleep. Lol..bless his lil heart! Here are a few pics from the choo choo party!

I LOVE throwing parties! I LOVE making things and decorating. This one was a wee bit special than most  because it was for my lil man! I thought it turned out super cute and had special homemade touches from momma and daddy =)

This was my favorite....the treat table for the kiddos =)

Trevor and I stayed up till 10:30 Friday night making these chocolate covered oreo's and bagging them up. Yes, you read that correctly. My sweet hubby helped....he's pretty amazing!

Choo choo whistles ~ thanks to Cha Cha for finding these!

Train of treats :) And conductor hats, of course!

I'm gonna make some more of these just for myself. They were super yummy (and addictive)!

My sweet friend April made his cake. Not only was it super cute, it was soooo yummy! I had quite a few people tell me how delish it was...and I have to agree! Thanks so much my sweet frand :)

We enjoyed a fun day filled with yummy food, amazing friends and family, a super fun big bounce house and delish sweets! It was such a fun, fun day that I'll remember for as long as I live and hopefully Tanner can look back at all of these pictures and see how much fun he had and how big he's loved!

We had a yummy spread of hamburgers, hot dogs, baked beans, cole slaw and chips! 

I have no idea how I fit all of this into my already toy crowded home, but I did =)

I just love this sweet boy! Choo choo shirt was handmade by his momma, of course :)

Time to blow out the candle, but instead he wanted to push the train in the icing :)

Opening gifts!

Playing with the toys with his buddies!

Tanner and his sweet friend from school!

Cutie patootie in his new hat from Mimi! 

Tanner and his BFF's with their cute conductor hats!

Love from Mrs. Leslie :))

And kisses from Auntie Cates!

And that recap's the wonderful 2 year old's choo choo party! I loved throwing this party and I'm so thankful for my mom and mother-in-laws help (and hubby's too)! So until next year, it's a wrap =)

I am off to spend the weekend in Charleston with my mom, cousin and bffeih! I am soooo excited and looking forward to it! I have been so busy here lately that a girls weekend away is just what I need! Don't get me wrong, I'll miss my lil man and hubs bunches! But to be honest, I'm really looking forward to sleeping in. How sad is that?! You know you're a mom when...lol! Hope ya'll have a wonderful Wednesday! Until next time...

Magan

too blessed to be stressed....mom post #02

I’m not sure about you, but do you ever feel like you’re sometimes too blessed? That God has given you way more than you deserve? Well, that’s how I have been feeling for quite some time now. I feel an abundance of blessings in my life and my family’s life. I feel so grateful, but so unworthy. It’s hard to explain, but it feels like things just keep getting better and better.

When Trevor and I first got married, we were young. Things were stressful. It was all new to us and we had to figure it out. I look back on those days and realize we were truly blessed, but at the time it was just so hard. I was working full time, going to school full time, had some drama filled people in my life and had a husband who I tried to be a great wife too. Now I look at my life at the present time and I have more than I could ever ask for. I still have that awesome husband, no more dramatic friends/people surrounding me (in fact I have the best group of friends ever), I have a job/hobby that I LOVE, the best family in the world and a little boy who is a hair shy of being perfect.

I was thinking the other day that I truly am blessed and happy. I am the happiest I have ever been in my whole life. For real. I was thinking about this while I was working on numerous embroidery orders and getting things together for Tanner’s party. I was stressing out over how I was going to get all of this done…not to mention when was I going to clean my dirty house and find time to cook supper and actually have a second to spend with my hubs. But that all quickly faded when I thought about how some people would give anything to be stressed about having too many orders or planning their child’s birthday party. Not everyone gets to enjoy their fave hobby. Or not everyone has the opportunity to have children and actually throw a birthday party. Sometimes God just smacks me back into reality and I thank Him for that. Thankfully, I hardly ever feel stressed. I sometimes think I am superwoman and I can do it all. I give it my all and try. But sometimes I do get overwhelmed. New motto though…I am too blessed to be stressed.

I’m not really sure what prompted me to write this mom post, I guess so many prayers have been answered lately and I just want to scream about how truly happy I am. And most importantly about the amazing God who provides me with all of this happiness. Don’t get me wrong though, I do have bad days. I do get cranky when I’m hungry and I do have little arguments with my husband and I do get irritated when my son disobeys, but that’s like chump change compared to all of the positives going on in my life. I guess the saying that ‘the older you grow the wiser you get’ (or however it goes) is true. I know what’s important in my life nowadays. It’s not friends who will bring me down or a job that sucks the life out of me or stressing over money. It’s about surrounding myself with those that I love. It’s about making my life here on earth the best that I can.

Speaking of amazing friends, Tanner and I had lunch with one of my dear old co-workers (who is such a sweet friend of mine). He LOVES her and wanted to ditch his mom and go home with her. I def have my next babysitter lined up :)) 

Tanner's lunch date :)

I hope ya’ll have a great hump day and wonderful weekend! I’ll be back next week to post some pics of Tanner’s choo choo party! I have lots to do before Saturday, but hey I’m too blessed to be stressed. Momma’s gonna get her super power’s goin and throw the most fun train party eva!! Lol! Until next time…

Magan

Crazy life of an organized mom

OMG! Hello to my blog...oh how I've missed you! I don't really have anything wonderful/important/great to share, other than I have been so darn busy that I feel like a total loony crazy person! My life the last week has consisted of embroidering every single moment my child is asleep, including a few nights till 10:30 or 11:00 at night. My poor husband has been shafted, but he totally understands. Momma's gotta work too (and I love it btw) :) I was upstairs last night, after I ditched him for a tv date, and while I was working away he sent me this sweet text before he went to bed. I'm so thankful for him and it makes me love him even more because he appreciates me.

The best hubby...I just love him.

I have also been organizing. If you know me, or you've probably learned from reading this blog, I LOVE things to be organized. I'm not sure why I decided to take on so many projects at once, especially when I have so many monogramming orders to fill along with throwing a certain 2 year old a birthday party. But I started and now I can't stop. The first one was my closet. I decided to ditch the shoe boxes and place them all in baskets. I had this wire thing that I used in my embroidery room, so I moved it to my closet and bought some more baskets. 'After' pictures will come later, but I'm loving it! It's so much better and Trevor is so glad the dreaded shoe boxes are gone!

Tanner to the rescue with his spatula!

Good bye shoe boxes!

This is the wire thing that now holds six baskets and looks so much better than before! One day I plan to have cabinets instead of these things, but that'll take time!

My sweet uncle gave me a cabinet that had just been sitting down in my grandma's basement. It will be perfect for my embroidery room and will give me a lot more space to store stuff. See all of that stuff on the floor?! Makes me soooo overwhelmed! That all came from the wire thing I moved downstairs. And this is what I'm left with till someone helps the hubs move the cabinet upstairs. =)  Oh joy...I have no idea when that will be! Any takers wanna come assist?!

What a hot mess we have here! That's all fabric!! Wowzers!

My work station...another hot mess!

Other than being disorganized, working on a million different orders and planning Tanner's birthday party (his party's a little late this year due to some family members being out of town) I got to spend the day with my 2 year old at his well check visit. He is a healthy 31 lbs and 37.5 inches long...he's in the 101% for height. Future basketball player hopefully :)) He was so well behaved! Oh and I forgot to mention that last Friday night Trevor and I decided no more Friday night take out! We braved it and actually went to the Mexican restaurant to eat. Our little big boy did amazing. He sat in a booster seat, ate his chips and dinner and never acted like a crazy person. We were soooo impressed, happy, joyful, ecstatic, and I could keep going on lol! He's growin up on us :(

Checking out his new band-aid :)

So hopefully one of these days I'll be able to sit down during nap time and write more. Next week will be just as crazy as this past week, but I'm not complaining. I have a beautiful family to take care of and lots of cute stuff to monogram for my amazing customers. I'm blessed. Simply blessed. Enjoy your Wednesday! Until next time...

Magan

Tanner is 2!

Two years ago today…just thinking about that day makes me so emotional. I had prayed for God to bless us with a child if that be His will. And He did. On April 1, 2011 my precious son, Tanner Benjamin, was brought into this world at 8:32 am. I had to have a c-section because I had preeclampsia and he was breech. Our doctor told us they would take him at 37 weeks, which fell on April 1. Trevor asked if they could deliver him the day before or after, he wasn’t feeling the whole April Fools birthday thing {he’s a little strange lol}. They quickly told him no, he would be born on April 1. He lives up to every bit of being an April Fools baby.

Tanner's baking :)

He's HERE!!

Our 6 week old sweet baby!

The moment he was born there was a rush of emotions and I couldn’t believe he was actually here. My 6 lb. 8 oz. little baby was here! The first year with him was absolutely amazing. All of his strides were so important to us...rolling over, holding his head up, taking his first steps, talking, laughing and the list could go on. He turned one and broke my heart. He was no longer a little baby. He was a walking/running wild little boy who loved to talk all of the time.

Tanner is 6 months old!

Sitting up like a big boy :)

Tanner is 1!

The past year has been such a blessing. He has grown into a little toddler. His blonde curls have grown and he’s no longer bald on the top. He has almost all of his teeth now. He has humongous feet and long lil legs. He can run super fast and likes to waller all over his momma. He’s such a good eater…he loves baked beans and bread and anything else you give him. He loves his family and they love him. He loves to pick out his own pajamas. He cleans up his toys and is always willing to help with chores. He loves bath time. He loves his Mr. Bear. He is strong willed and hard headed. He loves animals of any kind. He loves going to school. He loves to smile and it can brighten up a room. He can pitch a fit like it’s nobody’s business. He can make any bad day 100x better. He is amazing. Simply an amazing gift from God.

18 months old as Mickey :)

And the curls are everywhere!

And he's 2!! Enjoying his day doing what he loves...visiting with lots of animals :)

Tanner Benjamin, I love you with all of my big ole heart. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. I love every minute I get to spend with you. Whether it’s fun times or times when I have to discipline you, I cherish those times because it means that I’m your mom.. What an amazing job God gave me. I pray daily that you will grow up to be a strong young man who loves the Lord. I pray daily that your dad and I will teach you about Him and raise you according to His word. The past two years you have brought so much joy to our lives…thank you for that. Thank you for loving me when I don’t always feel like loving myself. You have my heart forever and ever. I am so proud of you and all that you have accomplished this far in your little life. While I don’t want you to grow up, I love watching you grow. I wish you could stay my baby forever {and you will}, but on the other hand I can’t wait to see the man you grow up to be. We are so in love with you. Happy 2^nd birthday to the boy who stole my heart in a big way!

Our precious 2 year old!

Trevor took the day off today, so we decided to take Tanner to Hollywild....a fun place with lots of animals! We enjoyed a safari ride, fed the goats, walked around and talked to all of the animals and then we had lunch at a yummy pizza place where we used to live! It's crazy to think that two years have already passed. I've loved every minute! I hope you all have a great Monday! I'm off to do some work while my big boy naps away! Until next time...

Magan

Foodie Friday

Happy Good Friday ya'll! I have been trying a lot of new recipes here lately. I'm super proud of myself for stepping out of my normal meat and potatoes zone. My hubby is extra proud too. He told me the other night that I had stepped it up a few notches. He was impressed by my new stuff =) I was kinda impressed by myself too!

The dinner that he was most surprised with was a roast. He came home and thought I was cooking chilli beans because that's all I ever cook in my crock pot. He was wrong and he was glad he was wrong lol! I've demoslihed a few roasts in my cooking lifetime, but hallelujah this one survived and was actually pretty good! Props to my good ole pal Pinterest {see here}.

The only thing I did wrong was cook it a little too long. My roast wasn't as big as the one in the recipe, so next time I'll cook it for maybe 3-3.5 hours on high instead of 5. Btw my roast was a little under 2 lbs. Perfect size for the two of us. Tanner didn't care for it, but he did like the potatoes and carrots.  Recipe's below...

Ingredients:

• A 2-5 lb roast. (any kind)  I use a lean cut, about 3 lbs.
• 1 envelope ranch dressing (dried) I use Hidden Valley brand, not buttermilk
• 1 envelope Italian dressing   I use Western Family brand.
• 1 envelope brown gravy mix  I use McCormick brand
• Potatoes and Carrots  (enough to fill a bottom layer on your CrockPot) I use about 7 or 8 baby red potatoes and a half pound of carrots to feed 3-4.
• 1 to 1-1/2 cup water 

What you do:

1.      Put any carrots and potatoes in the bottom of your CrockPot. I usually quarter my potatoes and use baby carrots.

2.     Put Roast on top of vegetables. 

3.     Sprinkle all 3 spice envelopes on top. 

4.     Add the water. 

5.     Cook on LOW for 6-10 hours until tender and veggies cooked through.It is better to cook the roast longer. This will be sooooo tender and yummy!!

Easy peasy and delish!

We had a fabulous meal at my sweet friends house last weekend and all we had to do was bring dessert. I just love my friends! So I searched on Pinterest and found where I had pinned a dessert for Weight Watchers Cheesecake Bars {found here}. First of all, I am in love with cheesecake. Second of all, I could really go for something lower in fat than what I originally had in mind. Plus, I had most of the ingredients at home. I think it turned out pretty good. Trevor didn't like it. I think my friend Miranda liked it. I know Tanner loved it. He has his momma's sweet tooth. 

Ingredients
1 (8 ounce) package cream cheese, softened
3/4 cup M&M or Smarties candies
1/2 cup walnuts, chopped
1 egg
1/3 cup margarine
1 cup flour
1/4 cup sugar, granulated
1/3 cup sugar, brown packed
1 teaspoon vanilla extract

Preparation
1. Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F.
2. Beat the margarine and brown sugar until light and fluffy.
3. Add the walnuts and flour; mix well.
4. Reserve 1/2 cup of the crumb mixture; press the remaining crumb mixture into bottom of a 8″ square pan.
5. Bake at 350 degrees for about 10 minutes.
6. Combine the softened cream cheese, granulated sugar and vanilla; using an electric mixer, mix at medium speed until well blended.
7. Add the egg; mix well.
8. Layer 1/2 cup of the Smarties or M&M candies over the crust; top with the cream cheese mixture.
9. Combine the remaining candy and reserved crumb mixture; mix well.
10. Sprinkle the crumb mixture over the cream cheese mixture.
11. Bake at 350 degrees for about 20 minutes.
12. Let cool completely before serving.

WW POINTS for one square: 5
Nutritional information for one square: 217 calories, 13.6g fat, 0.7g fiber

The end result!

I hope you all have a wonderful Easter with your families! I am looking forward to spending my Easter Sunday in church and with my family. I am thankful for all that God has done for me and blessed me with. He is an amazing Father who I love with all of my heart! Enjoy your Good Friday and Easter weekend!








Until next time...


Magan

To my sweet hubby...

Monday my little baby boy will be two. He’s not so little anymore, actually he’s really tall and wears a size 8 in shoes. I reminisce a lot {about good things only, of course} and while I was thinking back the other day to what we were doing two years ago, it made me realize how blessed we are. How blessed I am. I try to think of how it used to be when it was just me, Trevor and our dog Maggie. It’s hard to remember. Life must have been so boring before Tanner. Really it wasn’t, it was just a different kind of life. With that said, I just want to take a minute and thank my baby daddy, the one who helped create our sweet blessing.

Both of my grandmas always tell me how lucky I am to have him. Boy they sure are right. Not only is he a wonderful husband who loves me, he is an even more amazing daddy. I knew the moment that he laid eyes on Tanner in that operating room that he was a different man. I had a c-section and had some complications afterwards. He was my nurse for the next 10 weeks {and a very good one} and was a new daddy. We took turns with nightly feedings and diaper changes. He wanted to be a part of everything, from bath time to picking out his outfits. I realized very quickly that we were in this together. Not just me because I birthed him, but it’s 50/50 around our house. It was amazing. It made me truly fall more in love with him than I already was.

And now here we are almost two years later. Trevor was always anxious for Tanner to be able to walk so he could play with him and teach him to play ball. He has surely kept his word. Every night when he gets home from work no matter how exhausted he his, he plays with him. He feeds him, he bathes him almost every night, and he’s the one chasing him around the house at night when I’m exhausted. He goes above and beyond and never complains. And for that, my dear amazing husband who I know reads my blog, I just want to tell you thank you from the bottom of my heart. I’m no longer scared to have another baby. I know that if we can take care of our wild monkey for the past two years, then we can certainly do it again. We are far from perfect, but we certainly try and learn along the way. The main reason is because we’re in it together.

I’m not just a proud mom. I’m a proud wife. I’m proud of how hard my husband works each today and how he comes home, leaves work at the front door and walks in as a daddy. He thinks I’m super mom, well honey I think you’re super dad. So cheers to making it two years as first time parents! I can’t wait to see what our future holds as mommy and daddy =) I love you so very much!

Hopefully I'll be sharing some yummy recipes tomorrow! Hope ya'll are having a great day! Until next time...

Magan